God will make a way! I believe that with my whole heart. I know God will make a way for me. I believe it is my time to shine, to prosper, to succeed, to inspire others and to become the person God created me to be. I feel in my heart that God has big plans for me, and I know they will all come to me in due time. I have to keep faith though, even through hard disappointing times. Never will I give up.
God knows everything I need and He shall provide, as long as I keep asking, and as long as I keep my faith forever strong in Him. Of course God will make a way. But that doesn't mean you can sit on your rear day after day and pray and just expect Him to bring you what you need. It doesn't work that way. even though God will provide a way for you, He also wants you to work at it, search for it, live each day trying to better yourself while praying to Him to help you find the way. You cant just give up and wait for God. You have to find Him. I have been searching for a job for almost 2 months now, and with no luck. The previous job I had came to an end around Christmas time in 2009, due to the business closing. I was devastated. And in my search for work I became disappointed and kept telling myself I would never find work, I don't think anyone is going to hire me, I am destined to be a failure and not be able to provide for my family. I was so wrong in my thinking. Now that I have faith in the Lord, I know he will make a way. He will provide me with what is best for me in His eyes, not mine. I know that for me to succeed and to find that job I so dearly need, I have to search for it, harder than I did before, but with a better attitude. I have to pray and pray constantly, and never give up. He will make a way for His child to become everything He created me to be. I will do things in this journey I have ahead of me that I will not understand. I will be thinking this is unfair, this isn`t the big break I know God has in store for me, how could this be helping me. I COULD think like that, but I WON`T. Instead I will thank Him and Praise Him for I know that whatever He brings upon me that it is all part of His plan, and it is making me ready for the big break, the wonderful great blessings He has waiting for me. It will all come in due time. God is an on time God. He doesn`t work on my clock, He works from His. He gives us all the things we need at the right times in our lives. I believe God will make a way for me!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Stretching Your Faith ♥
Stretch your Faith. It`s not a rubber band, it won`t break. So go on, stretch your Faith in the Lord as far as you can take it! Don`t be ashamed. Don`t be scared, just go on and try it. God wants you too! God is longing for you to reach others through your Faith in Him. It`s the right thing to do.
My Prayer ♥
Dear Lord, I thank you for bringing your blessings upon me. I thank You, God, for strengthing my Faith in You Lord. I love You God and I know You love me.I thank You Lord for my family, my happiness, my faith, and all that You have put upon my heart. I know good things are coming to me. I am asking today for Your favor, for Your blessings upon me. I ask God, not only will You bless me with all You hoped for me to be, and for I shall make true in this life the dreams You put into my heart, but Lord, bless me in such a way that I can share my blessings upon others, bring good into their lives, share my Faith in You God with the ones I encounter in my life. God, thank You for being a great God, a loving God, and for Your son, Jesus Christ who shed his blood for to wash away our sins. God, I ask that I to can breath the faith Of the Lord into another soul who walks this earth, and that she/he can do the same. I love you God and I praise you! In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Understanding
Do you understand the Power of God? The Power of Faith? If not, you should. Often times people are scared of the unknown, of faith, scared of believing. Perhaps its because they don't want to be the one righteous person standing alone. All to often we find it easier to stand with the wrong crowd, the negative speakers. When you do that you are paving a road to Hell. No one wants to go to Hell, right? We all want to go to Heaven, walk the streets of gold. But we don't want to do the work to get there. This world needs good people, good role models, good teachers, who will show us that there is nothing wrong with sticking to what you believe in. So, you believe in God and you have put all your Faith into His hands. Along comes some people who don't believe, they may make fun of you and your faith. Don't give in to them and join their disbelieving ways. That is simply a test from God to see how strong your Faith is. Don't disappoint God. Make him proud. Stand away from the negative, over power the bad with your faith in the Lord. You will soon see that you will reap the rewards of good faith into your life.
That was me, up until a few days ago. Of course I always believed in God, I just didn't understand what it meant to "have faith". I didn't grow up with the word of God preached or spoken to me. I didn't know how God could change my life. I didn't know that He had an amazing life ahead of me. For the longest I thought God hated me, for He must because He allowed all this negative and bad things to come into my life and happen to me. Nothing seemed to get better for me, it always go worse, or so I thought. Even though I prayed daily, and often, it didn't seem to help. God wanted me to have Faith. I didn't know how to have Faith in the Lord. For 31 years of my life I heard God being criticized, and talked bad about. I would often hear "Why attend church, God doesn't care about me". When I was in school I would see people who had Faith and then hear the laughs, the negative comments from other kids. Because of all those things I never pursed God.
I met Cody Cookston on May 26th 2008 and that was the beginning of something good. Looking back I now see that God had sent him to me, it was His plan. In the first few months of us dating Cody treated me like I was someone special. I had never been special to anyone before. Cody would tell me things like, "You are beautiful", "You can do anything you set your mind too". He was always encouraging me to follow my dreams, he stood beside me, held my hand, and he had Faith in me. Things no one else had ever said to me. He said good things to me, great things, as opposed to all the negative words from my past. Cody was sent to me to help put my life in order so that I would find my Faith in the Lord. I started going to church with Cody on and off. Sometimes I really enjoyed it, other times it made absolutely no sense to me. I often thought whats the use. I tried to forgive people for their wrong doings but I'm still angry with them. This isn't doing me any good. It was, I just couldn't see it. My negativity was like a fog that kept me from seeing the Faith I could be blessed to have. I often went to bed each night wondering, praying, and trying really hard to put my Faith in God. It never worked for me. I said to myself, I'm destined to fail and be miserable for the rest of my life.
February 1st I was laying in the bed talking to Cody, more like crying. I told him that I no longer could handle the pain from my past, I no longer wanted to feel angry at the world, I was tired and I wanted to give up on God, on a good life, on ever finding peace. I prayed and prayed that night until I fell asleep praying. The next day was one that would be the start of the rest of my life.
As I woke up the next morning, I felt the same. I thought God still didn't hear my prayers. I was a grump all day. Well, my son John had a science project to do and I needed the materials. I went to walmart to buy poster board for John, and that's when it happened. See, I don't buy alot of books, I'm not a reader. As I grabbed my item I turned around and I saw this book. I couldn't take my eyes off it. I picked it up and read 3 sentences from the back then through it in the buggy and thought, might as well. Later that night I started reading this book, it changed me almost instantly. I was amazed! Everything about God made sense now, how to have Faith made sense, how to pray and so on. I read the first chapter that night and I woke up the next day a different person. It felt like God had reached inside of my soul and ripped out all the negative, and allowed the good hearted person I was meant to be to arise from the tiny little spot it had been squashed into all those years. I had Faith. I believed. It is still amazing to me that for 31 yrs I had no faith, I heard it preached but never accepted it, and in one night my whole life changed. Just like that I had Faith in the Lord. It was his plan all along. My Faith came to me at the right time. God knew for this stubborn hard headed woman to believe in good that I had to endure a life time of pain, heartache, and disappointment. God does work in mysterious ways, even if it is through a book bought at walmart. I know UNDERSTAND why my life was as it was, why I am now a strong woman, and I understand how to properly love God, have Faith in Him, and put my life into His hands. Its all about timing and understanding..........I hope that you can also understand and believe. Its a wonderful feeling, nothing else in this world like it!
That was me, up until a few days ago. Of course I always believed in God, I just didn't understand what it meant to "have faith". I didn't grow up with the word of God preached or spoken to me. I didn't know how God could change my life. I didn't know that He had an amazing life ahead of me. For the longest I thought God hated me, for He must because He allowed all this negative and bad things to come into my life and happen to me. Nothing seemed to get better for me, it always go worse, or so I thought. Even though I prayed daily, and often, it didn't seem to help. God wanted me to have Faith. I didn't know how to have Faith in the Lord. For 31 years of my life I heard God being criticized, and talked bad about. I would often hear "Why attend church, God doesn't care about me". When I was in school I would see people who had Faith and then hear the laughs, the negative comments from other kids. Because of all those things I never pursed God.
I met Cody Cookston on May 26th 2008 and that was the beginning of something good. Looking back I now see that God had sent him to me, it was His plan. In the first few months of us dating Cody treated me like I was someone special. I had never been special to anyone before. Cody would tell me things like, "You are beautiful", "You can do anything you set your mind too". He was always encouraging me to follow my dreams, he stood beside me, held my hand, and he had Faith in me. Things no one else had ever said to me. He said good things to me, great things, as opposed to all the negative words from my past. Cody was sent to me to help put my life in order so that I would find my Faith in the Lord. I started going to church with Cody on and off. Sometimes I really enjoyed it, other times it made absolutely no sense to me. I often thought whats the use. I tried to forgive people for their wrong doings but I'm still angry with them. This isn't doing me any good. It was, I just couldn't see it. My negativity was like a fog that kept me from seeing the Faith I could be blessed to have. I often went to bed each night wondering, praying, and trying really hard to put my Faith in God. It never worked for me. I said to myself, I'm destined to fail and be miserable for the rest of my life.
February 1st I was laying in the bed talking to Cody, more like crying. I told him that I no longer could handle the pain from my past, I no longer wanted to feel angry at the world, I was tired and I wanted to give up on God, on a good life, on ever finding peace. I prayed and prayed that night until I fell asleep praying. The next day was one that would be the start of the rest of my life.
As I woke up the next morning, I felt the same. I thought God still didn't hear my prayers. I was a grump all day. Well, my son John had a science project to do and I needed the materials. I went to walmart to buy poster board for John, and that's when it happened. See, I don't buy alot of books, I'm not a reader. As I grabbed my item I turned around and I saw this book. I couldn't take my eyes off it. I picked it up and read 3 sentences from the back then through it in the buggy and thought, might as well. Later that night I started reading this book, it changed me almost instantly. I was amazed! Everything about God made sense now, how to have Faith made sense, how to pray and so on. I read the first chapter that night and I woke up the next day a different person. It felt like God had reached inside of my soul and ripped out all the negative, and allowed the good hearted person I was meant to be to arise from the tiny little spot it had been squashed into all those years. I had Faith. I believed. It is still amazing to me that for 31 yrs I had no faith, I heard it preached but never accepted it, and in one night my whole life changed. Just like that I had Faith in the Lord. It was his plan all along. My Faith came to me at the right time. God knew for this stubborn hard headed woman to believe in good that I had to endure a life time of pain, heartache, and disappointment. God does work in mysterious ways, even if it is through a book bought at walmart. I know UNDERSTAND why my life was as it was, why I am now a strong woman, and I understand how to properly love God, have Faith in Him, and put my life into His hands. Its all about timing and understanding..........I hope that you can also understand and believe. Its a wonderful feeling, nothing else in this world like it!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Love God :) ♥
Love God. Praise God. Worship God. Put your Faith in God. If you do all these daily you will have everything you need. God will not deny you the essentials it take for you to survive. If you don't already, try it today. God wants you to love yourself and that's where it all begins. You cant be happy until you love yourself. You say its too hard to be happy. No, God will make a way. So when you feel discouraged and like your life is going nowhere.....drop to your knees and pray. Father, You said the path of righteous gets better and brighter. You said no good thing will You withhold, because I walk uprightly. You said because I delight myself in You, You would give me the secret petitions of my heart. So, Father, I want to thank you that You are in control of my life, good things are in store, and I believe my time is coming.
Stay in an attitude of Faith, and an attitude of expectancy. Then the good Lord shall always provide.
Stay in an attitude of Faith, and an attitude of expectancy. Then the good Lord shall always provide.
One Act of Random Kindness
So, you say you don't have a reason to smile? Think again. You have several reasons to smile! Your alive, you have a great God who loves you, you have the ability to change your life. All you have to do is want it badly enough. So, today, when something really gets under your skin and you want to scream, or say something mean, just stop, breathe, and smile. You will feel better. Frowning and being negative takes a lot from your body, mind and soul. So smile, be happy, and I'm telling you you will feel better, have more energy, and after a few days of doing this you will feel great about yourself and actually become addicted to kindness. Its a good addiction though. Its never to late. You are closer than you think to a better life, a richer relationship, and a healthier body. Rewards will await you if you stay steadfast in your faith.
I am staying steadfast in my faith. I know good things are waiting for me. I wont get discouraged, I wont be disappointed, I will simply believe it is all part of Gods plan. Even if I make a mistake, its ok. God already new I was going too. But he also has my life planned out. He has arranged all the right people to walk into my life at exactly the right moments. I will keep faith and prayer and I know I will reap all the good things in store for me.
Today, if you see someone having a bad day, perhaps they spilled their coffee, or they cuss all the time, or they lost a loved one, no matter the case give them a smile. Smile and say, I hope you have a better day, or tell them God loves them, you will feel better if you try smiling the rest of the day. Yes, some people may just look at you like your nuts, but I guarantee you they will eventually give it a second thought. They will try it and hopefully, your smile made a positive change in someones life.
The world is in need of kindness, and lots of it. We all need to share our kindness with others. You never know how a simple phone call to a friend, or a smile to a stranger, or telling a loved one you really care can actually have a large impact on their life. Showing someone you care is life changing. So today, share a smile, spread some kind words, help someone in any way. Just show some kindness to this world and you will feel so much better while knowing you are helping make this world a better place simply by sharing one Act of Random Kindness.
I am staying steadfast in my faith. I know good things are waiting for me. I wont get discouraged, I wont be disappointed, I will simply believe it is all part of Gods plan. Even if I make a mistake, its ok. God already new I was going too. But he also has my life planned out. He has arranged all the right people to walk into my life at exactly the right moments. I will keep faith and prayer and I know I will reap all the good things in store for me.
Today, if you see someone having a bad day, perhaps they spilled their coffee, or they cuss all the time, or they lost a loved one, no matter the case give them a smile. Smile and say, I hope you have a better day, or tell them God loves them, you will feel better if you try smiling the rest of the day. Yes, some people may just look at you like your nuts, but I guarantee you they will eventually give it a second thought. They will try it and hopefully, your smile made a positive change in someones life.
The world is in need of kindness, and lots of it. We all need to share our kindness with others. You never know how a simple phone call to a friend, or a smile to a stranger, or telling a loved one you really care can actually have a large impact on their life. Showing someone you care is life changing. So today, share a smile, spread some kind words, help someone in any way. Just show some kindness to this world and you will feel so much better while knowing you are helping make this world a better place simply by sharing one Act of Random Kindness.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Facing the Past for a Better Tomorrow
There are a few things I will mention. The things that hurt me the most throughout my life. I know this isn't really the choice reading material, but to me i feel it is helping me in my own way to write about it. I know it sounds silly but I also know it will help me.
First-I grew up with a mother and step father who wasn't loving towards me. I never heard my parents say to me they love me, don't recall any hugs either. Of course all little children need to hear " I love you" from mommy and daddy. My mother admits she hated herself for not having an abortion when she was pregnant with me. She is no longer in my life because according to her she is embarrassed to have me as a daughter. Who knows what goes through this woman's mind but I believe God could do her some good. It hurts to have parents who openly admit they don't love you or want you.
Second- This is probably the hardest of all to talk about. Only a few people know because for years I blamed myself, and thought it was my fault. I know now it isn't and never was my fault. I was the victim of rape when I was 18. My worst nightmare came to life. I was raped by two males. I will spare details because mentioning them wont do any good. I became pregnant as a result but later miscarried. I am glad that I can finally talk about this, its good not to keep things bottled up for to long. This trauma caused me to begin the sleepless nights that only grew through the years.
Third- The biological father of my children severely abused me. After a few months of dating him, the abuse became a normal daily thing in my life. I miscarried, and I lost my son`s twin from the hand of this man. Several times I thought I would die but God had other plans for me. So after 6 years of suffering from his hand I decided to run. I did. I took my children, a few belongings and drove til I reached Alabama. Never looked back.
Four- The guy I dated for 5 years after the previous was a cheater, and a controlling man who had alot of anger issues. Although I stayed, I never really understood why, but I stayed. I always turned my head, looked the other way, and pretended that it wasn't happening. The controlling ways and his hurtful words was probably the worst. I had been put down my whole life by the family that was supposed to love me, and now by him. Back then the words really cut very deeply. I never quite got over any of this...............
Facing the Past for a Better Tomorrow- I am learning to forgive. God wants us to forgive. To praise him in all things good and bad. Because I have been done wrong and hurt by those people, I will no longer be negative and bitter, my attitude from now on will be....."They just did me a favor. They just qualified me for double. And I believe my time is coming. I will come out with twice the joy, twice the peace, twice the victory. " I will not be defeated! It may look impossible but I know God can do the impossible. They may have treated me wrong. I'm not worried. I know God is my vindicator. It may be taking a long time, but in due time I will reap my reward if I just don't give up. God can get me through anything I ask of him, maybe not on my terms but surly on his. He is a great God and I am proud to say that i will follow him and love him and I will praise him! My time is coming, my time to shine, my time to finally forgive all those i am needing to. My past will not define who I am, I will define who I am, and I choose not to be the girl who had a hurtful past. I choose to be the woman who has a beautiful heart and a promising tomorrow ahead of her.
***Update*** I proudly can say I didn't have an after dinner cigarette. Yay me! Life is easier and things just flow so much more smoothly when you are positive and forget about the negatives. So until tomorrow God Bless you all and may you find love peace and happiness. :) ♥
First-I grew up with a mother and step father who wasn't loving towards me. I never heard my parents say to me they love me, don't recall any hugs either. Of course all little children need to hear " I love you" from mommy and daddy. My mother admits she hated herself for not having an abortion when she was pregnant with me. She is no longer in my life because according to her she is embarrassed to have me as a daughter. Who knows what goes through this woman's mind but I believe God could do her some good. It hurts to have parents who openly admit they don't love you or want you.
Second- This is probably the hardest of all to talk about. Only a few people know because for years I blamed myself, and thought it was my fault. I know now it isn't and never was my fault. I was the victim of rape when I was 18. My worst nightmare came to life. I was raped by two males. I will spare details because mentioning them wont do any good. I became pregnant as a result but later miscarried. I am glad that I can finally talk about this, its good not to keep things bottled up for to long. This trauma caused me to begin the sleepless nights that only grew through the years.
Third- The biological father of my children severely abused me. After a few months of dating him, the abuse became a normal daily thing in my life. I miscarried, and I lost my son`s twin from the hand of this man. Several times I thought I would die but God had other plans for me. So after 6 years of suffering from his hand I decided to run. I did. I took my children, a few belongings and drove til I reached Alabama. Never looked back.
Four- The guy I dated for 5 years after the previous was a cheater, and a controlling man who had alot of anger issues. Although I stayed, I never really understood why, but I stayed. I always turned my head, looked the other way, and pretended that it wasn't happening. The controlling ways and his hurtful words was probably the worst. I had been put down my whole life by the family that was supposed to love me, and now by him. Back then the words really cut very deeply. I never quite got over any of this...............
Facing the Past for a Better Tomorrow- I am learning to forgive. God wants us to forgive. To praise him in all things good and bad. Because I have been done wrong and hurt by those people, I will no longer be negative and bitter, my attitude from now on will be....."They just did me a favor. They just qualified me for double. And I believe my time is coming. I will come out with twice the joy, twice the peace, twice the victory. " I will not be defeated! It may look impossible but I know God can do the impossible. They may have treated me wrong. I'm not worried. I know God is my vindicator. It may be taking a long time, but in due time I will reap my reward if I just don't give up. God can get me through anything I ask of him, maybe not on my terms but surly on his. He is a great God and I am proud to say that i will follow him and love him and I will praise him! My time is coming, my time to shine, my time to finally forgive all those i am needing to. My past will not define who I am, I will define who I am, and I choose not to be the girl who had a hurtful past. I choose to be the woman who has a beautiful heart and a promising tomorrow ahead of her.
***Update*** I proudly can say I didn't have an after dinner cigarette. Yay me! Life is easier and things just flow so much more smoothly when you are positive and forget about the negatives. So until tomorrow God Bless you all and may you find love peace and happiness. :) ♥
My Bad Habit
I have a bad habit, smoking. Well, let me correct myself, HAD a bad habit. Today I decided it was time to quit and get healthy again. Despite all the other times I have tried to quit in the past, but failed, I know this time is different. I WILL quit! I have God holding my hand, showing me a better way. He is telling me I can do anything as long as I hold tight to my faith. My faith......well that was a little weak over the past few years, but I am now a true believer. Don't ask me how, but in one night everything changed for me. When I went to bed last night I knew when I woke this morning things were going to be better. I woke up with a smile, ready to start the day-instead of the normal growl I gave because I didn't want to get out of bed. I was happy, and ready to start the first day of the rest of my life.
So I will mention my progress on kicking this bad habit to the curve in my post daily. Feel free to pray for me, extras prayers are always appreciated. :) So for now, I am going to cook dinner for the family and see if I can beat the hardest part of smoking. I always have to smoke after I eat, so pray for me, as I conquer the evil tobacco. :) I know I will feel better, breathe better, and Oh My Goodness how I will smell better. Most people wouldn't be excited about this like I am, but I am super duper excited! YAY FOR ME! I am proud of myself, I love myself, and MY LIFE will be better because I am a better person today then I was yesterday! So until next time, God Bless you all, and may you find peace and happiness. :) ♥
So I will mention my progress on kicking this bad habit to the curve in my post daily. Feel free to pray for me, extras prayers are always appreciated. :) So for now, I am going to cook dinner for the family and see if I can beat the hardest part of smoking. I always have to smoke after I eat, so pray for me, as I conquer the evil tobacco. :) I know I will feel better, breathe better, and Oh My Goodness how I will smell better. Most people wouldn't be excited about this like I am, but I am super duper excited! YAY FOR ME! I am proud of myself, I love myself, and MY LIFE will be better because I am a better person today then I was yesterday! So until next time, God Bless you all, and may you find peace and happiness. :) ♥
Some Things About Me
My name is Alice Johnson. It will be changing this year when my fiance and I get married. Then I`ll be Alice Cookston. I am so blessed to have met Cody, he is the reason I believed true love existed. Sometimes I don't understand how that man can love me so much, but I am very thankful that he does. I have a son and a daughter (11 & 9) who are the light of my life. I am so proud that I am their mother. Both of my children are so sweet and loving, and I would never miss out on the goodnight kisses and hugs I get every night. They all 3 are my life.
This blog is sort of a therapy for me. I will be posting daily, sometimes maybe more, but always at least once a day. I thinks its good to get out your feelings, I have kept them inside and hidden for so long. I will be writing about my past, present, and future. The good and the bad. I will be working my way to believing in my faith more, and letting the negative control me less. I hope that by doing this I will come to terms with my past pain and hurt and be able to forgive and to not let it control who I am, or who I want to be.
Some of you may not even be interested in reading this, that's ok. Some of you may enjoy and hopefully find some inspiration in my words that you may relate to, maybe help you to change for the better. Either way, may God bless you and your loved ones, and always remember, You cant go wrong when you walk with God.
This blog is sort of a therapy for me. I will be posting daily, sometimes maybe more, but always at least once a day. I thinks its good to get out your feelings, I have kept them inside and hidden for so long. I will be writing about my past, present, and future. The good and the bad. I will be working my way to believing in my faith more, and letting the negative control me less. I hope that by doing this I will come to terms with my past pain and hurt and be able to forgive and to not let it control who I am, or who I want to be.
Some of you may not even be interested in reading this, that's ok. Some of you may enjoy and hopefully find some inspiration in my words that you may relate to, maybe help you to change for the better. Either way, may God bless you and your loved ones, and always remember, You cant go wrong when you walk with God.
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